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aug.3,2007 friday night

This is the moment that we’ve been waiting for a long..long time.Tomorrow is UPCAT na..I feel nervous.I always treat myself as a dumb!idiot!UP is a well-known university.Most of the UP students are intelligent!They are deserving….I don’t belong to them.My parent’s really insist me to study in UP.They’re hoping that i will pass!i am dumb in math how much more in taking the UPCAT!!!!!!Im te only child that’s y i understand them,they always push me even i can’t make it.I always cry…Yes, I don’t look in the bright side of the world!I know myself..I know where i belong..I guess,it’ a miracle if i pass!I have nothing to do it’s already here…all i have to do is trust in God..i should not believe in myself…Why do i always think negative ba?instead of thinking positive.But parang na va-vibes ko n ang outcome o resulta ng grade ko…

LETTER FOR MY DEAREST PARENT’S:
Pa,Ma,Im really sorry I can’t make this….i can’t ….I know i can’t pass…I know myself…You will only get hurt in the end.How well do you know you’re daugter??Pls.don’t push me,i might fall…

I know it’s very dramatic!but it’s the truth..They don’t know if im alright..I just always agree lng nmn eh..I always pretend….I always hide my feeling even they are my parent’s.Yes,my parents are funny…friendly,approachable,but they are vigorous to me..ofcourse im the only one..unica ija”..I should respect them..agree lng ng agree…..or else,they will scold me and keep on nagging nanaman c mom.

family affairs

my parents has a high expectations to me….kanina umagang umaga pinagalitan ako pagkagising sabi…”malapit na entrance exam mo!di ka manlang nag rereview…”nu ba???take it easy mum…putek!lalo akong na pe-pressure pag ganon…cge po kau d ako mag rereview…takteng calculus!bahala na sa trigo!puteeeeehhhhk na math!hirap mging isang anak.kaw lagi…they said ganda daw ng nagiisang anak?no!sunod sa layaw?no!di po ako ganon.hayyy..ewan!!!!!!!!!my load are heavy for a student who has an extra activities pa s labas.But its okay….basta ba may rock song….yan lng nmn pampa kalma ko pag na pe-pressure n ako at na tetense at nababaliw n!bwahahahahah!tawa lng!rakenrol!I don’t mind those &%$##@!

I’m So Sick

I will break into your thoughts
With what’s written on my heart
I will break, break

I’m so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I’m so sick
I’m so sick

If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you’ll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

I’m so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I’m so sick
I’m so sick

Hear it, I’m screaming it
You’re heeding to it now
Hear it, I’m screaming it
You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes
This invasion makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

I’m so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I’m so, I’m so sick

I’m so sick, infected with
Where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I’m so (I’m so)
I’m so sick (I’m so sick)
I’m so (I’m so)
I’m so sick (I’m so sick)